Get It Right
A chance to get it right...
I was not happy with my sexual past. Not so much in who but why. I felt I did what others were doing or what seemed to be expected in the time frame of meeting a man to sex. I believe this behavior changed my view and even desire of sex. I wanted more from relationships and felt a better foundation before sex was needed.
I told my latest ex this when we started dating. We waited 3 months before having sex. I have to admit I wanted to wait longer than that but gave into the subtle pressure. About two months ago I decided to reinstate this plan. I had not reason to think about it because I was in a relationship for 2 years. It took me a few months being back in the dating world to realize that I want to make the same commitment to myself.
A sermon I heard solidified my feelings. It stated "You have a chance to get it right". In reference to relationships mistakes. I know what does not work for me, so I need to focus on what I know does work. That starts with me being happy and making choices that I am comfortable with. It also goes along with being the person that the man I want to be with would want. I know that I want to be with man who has a similar, if not the same, thoughts about their body in reference to sex. I have to find a balance with where a person is and what they are working toward.
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